Oh, the thoughts provoked by the cool side of the pillow.

last night i was trying to clear my head of all thoughts so that i could fall asleep, without much luck.

the only good part of this process is that i usually end up coming up with the best ideas that i never follow through with, or forget about.

but one of them actually stuck.

i started thinking about getting old and dying and i started to panic. (this seems to happen pretty frequently lately)

and i thought, "with my belief system, this should not scare me." which it then became apparent that my testimony is obviously much weaker than it should be. and it wasn't this huge epiphany, i've known for awhile, and made some feeble attempts to strengthen it. (reading scriptures everyday etc.)

but when it comes right down to it, if i'm being honest with myself, (which i am usually bad at) i waste A LOT of time with stupid things, like facebook, tv, magazines, stumbling through the internet etc. etc.

i honestly believe that all of this is cluttering up my brain.

anyway, the whole point is that this is an ironic blog post about how i am going on a media fast for a week in order to get back in touch with my spiritual side and strengthen my testimony. i will give up TV, internet, non-fiction books, radio, mainstream/worldly music, newspapers, magazines, etc.

it probably seems like i am posting this to be self righteous or something, but i actually just thought it might be thought provoking to other people too.

if by chance you yourself have ever tried a media fast i would love to hear all about it. i plan on keeping a journal [everday] throughout the process, and depending on how interesting it is, i will possibly post those entries when the week is over. because after all, it's not like anyone reads this thing anyway. ;)

baby ladies (and gentlemen)

So basically, it's that time of year where everyone I know is giving birth, getting pregnant, orr being pregnant.

Anyway, I just wanted to say CONGRATULATIONS and JOB WELL DONE to everyone who has recently had a child, adopted a child, got pregnant with child, or has been pregnant for awhile with a child. Even if you're just a surrogate.

I wanted to tell all of you that I recent saw this documentary about babies.

It's really really cute, if you like babies, and if you didn't like babies before, now you have one so you are forced to. so when you finally get a chance to get out of the house, I highly recommend it. It's cute, enlightening, and cute. SOOO CUTE.

[my blogs are so boring lately. and now you know why i haven't been doing it.]

my lovely new accessory

dear world,

i haven't blogged in forever so i thought i would let everyone know that i got a puppy finally.

she's a 5 pound Havanese named Lux.

Basically, being a doggy mom is as difficult as i had anticipated it to be. but i love her.

The good news is that i got her spayed before her first heat cycle so i will never have to deal with anything like AnDe and her husband did, as blogged about here. ;)

i've found myself having to refrain from making a status update about everything that she does. cause i don't want to be that girl. oh and i talk way annoying to her (i.e. "hey my little bubby booby baby puppy baby!!!"). so i'm just putting that out there.

and for all the haters, yes she was expensive. she was a GIFT to me from my boyfriend, who will someday share her with me, and basically already does. and i am so grateful for her, she has been a GREAT companion so far, and having her has practically cured my homesickness problem entirely.

anyway, bla bla bla. i love my puppy. and she's gorgeous. and she's not a fag Chihuahua. or a cat.