dirty laundry.

Ever since I grew into my adulthood, about 10 months ago. (JK, still working on it.) I haven't been one for airing my dirty laundry in public, I rarely, if ever, talk about negative things that are going on in my life, particularly my love life.

Mostly, because I have learned from my past mistakes of telling anybody everything.

But, today, I would like to talk about something that I've been meaning to write about for awhile, and it is probably going to offend somebody, maybe. That's assuming that people even read this blog these days.

This is my testimonial about taking time, if you will.

Let me get real with you for a minute, this weekend was the most rough weekend I have ever had with Taylor. Ever. It was weird and I hated it and I'm glad it's over and resolved. And I realized how grateful I am that I have taken this time to get to know him, and learn how to handle situations such as these.

For those of you who are less educated about my life, I have been dating Taylor for almost a year now. And if we're being honest, if you told me a year ago, that I still wouldn't even be engaged by this time, I would have probably been punching babies and choking nuns. I don't feel this way anymore, and I didn't feel that way prior to our relationship either. I always told myself that I wanted to AT LEAST date someone for all 4 seasons and go on a road trip before I married them. Which, luckily, I have done + more.

DON'T GET AHEAD OF YOURSELVES. This is not an engagement announcement. We are not engaged. I am just simply saying, I am so grateful that I KNOW Taylor, and now I can honestly say that I love him. And it isn't a whirlwind romance, it's FOR REAL.

This isn't to say that everyone who rushes dating, engagement, and basically goes "Hey nice to meet you, will you marry me?" is wrong and it never works. I know people who are perfectly happy and did it that way. But I'm not going to pussyfoot around and tell you that it isn't a HUGE risk to marry someone that you don't know that well, because it is. (and no, you can't know someone that well in 3 months, sorry.) And unfortunately but fortunately I don't have the balls to do such a thing, even though I had a temporary moment of insanity and thought that's what I wanted. (The important thing here, is that I didn't.)

Anyway, I am not trying to be a huge A-hole and burst your bubble, rain on your parade, kill your buzz, harsh your mellow, or poop your party. I am just telling you that I personally am very happy about the time that I've taken, and will continue to take with my true love. Because I don't want a bunch of surprises when I'm married cause I'll be trying to get laid, a lot, and won't have time for such trivial things that I could have and have figured out while dating. And I highly recommend that if you have the chance to do so, you do the same.

Just saying.